"My 19.............."

I have a crazy dream, one of a kind
The night I dreamt of salvation’s light
The lightness of youth is so hot
I’m heated even hotter in it, I never fall out

Tomorrow is coming, ready or not
I’m always there, the grandson of a writer who believed in dreams
If your body is weak, just train up your stamina
I fattened up my soul with meditation

Can’t take your eyes off the back mirror while you’re running
Those false eyes as if in defense, anymore
There were times when the youth I brought on for no reason became a poison, I’m sorry
At times, like those who come back even though it’s meaningless
Like beautiful women who walk around the empty streets

I don’t like it alone, the silent night is deep
Today, tomorrow, I run alone
Shine my light, memories from when I was younger
I was like that then, sitting by the stream

I don’t know the end anyway, plead to the full moon in the sky
That day where I had nowhere to lean, I walk so I won’t regret
I don’t know the end anyway, plead to the full moon in the sky
That day where I had nowhere to lean, I walk so I won’t regret

I’ll go higher than the t-o-p
An extraordinary mudslide
Even in the middle of an endless tunnel
I’m an owl with eyes wide open asking what’s the problem
I have family and people who like me so I have it all
Often words don’t seem to work, so I keep my mouth shut

My self is a huge backpack I’m carrying
Though it’s heavy, I can’t find a solution anyway
The question of questions sometimes makes me hurt
The overshadowing of overshadowing pinches my heart
At times, like those who come back even though it’s meaningless
Like beautiful women who walk around the empty streets

I don’t like it alone, the silent night is deep
Today, tomorrow, I run alone
Shine my light, memories from when I was younger
I was like that then, sitting by the stream

Because, because of what
I didn’t know the side glances, but because of me
Wander, still wandering the streets
Today and tomorrow, because of me, because, because, because
Because, because I still have time
I’m just thankful, I say what’s on my heart, all of it
Because, because, because of me